Febuary 15,2009
Today Is Sunday February 15,2009

At this point I have been through 2 weeks of radiation and 2 chemo
treatments.  I am not as sick as I had expected which is good.  

I do believe what has made me sicker than anything is the amount of
money this is costing.  It is really hard to concentrate on getting well
when there is no money coming in.  I did talk to the company
handling my disability and the check is in the mail.  

It is far from what I had hoped for but, it is money coming in.  Going
through this is really making me a stronger person and opening my
eyes to so much more of what is going on around me.  

I went Friday to an appointment to receive food stamps.  This is a line
I would have never seen myself in.  I fought back the tears while the
lady interviewed me more over pride than how I had ended up here.  

This put my mind to racing and I have decided I need to do
something about this.  Not just for me but for the other women who
have this and do not know where to turn.  

I would like to start an organization that helps ladies like myself save
their pride and dignity while going through this.  A program that would
assist in paying rent or mortgage, utility bills that other services do
not cover, money for gas to get back and forth to the doctor.  Money
for parking fees. A grocery card if you do not qualify for food stamps.  I
just need to do something to help.  No one would have to loose
everything they have before they are eligible for help.  No one should
have to go through something like this just to learn your insurance is
not paid anymore while you are out.  Yes, I have to pay to keep my
insurance even though I am out on disability.  

The one blessing is I do have insurance but, on the other hand I have
a $1,500.00 deductible that is just about paid due to all the different
doctors I have had to see.  The drugs I have to take after the chemo
does not come in a generic so I have to pay $60.00 per week for 2
pills that I have to take for the 2 days following treatment.  

I am just 2 weeks into this and going on broke.  I have another
doctors appointment Tuesday that will tell me how much longer I will
be in treatment.  At this point I know I am scheduled for 3 more
weeks of radiation treatment and 3 more chemo treatment.  

I will update this again after Tuesday.  Until then if you know of
groups or organizations I can turn to and add to this site for others
please let me know (contact me).