I finally understood why Mom always
insists on us wearing clean underwear.

Today is Tuesday January 27th

January 27th blog entry


I know I know, I said I would post a new blog after yesterdays appointment.  
I was told I had to go back at 10 am this morning so I thought I would
combine the two.
Yesterday which was a consultation I was told was a little more than I
thought.  I walked out the door at the last possible minute.  Needless to say
I did not wake up like a kid at Christmas looking forward to this
appointment.  
Being that this was a consultation (in my mind we would chat about what
was going to happen).  Not so much.  Once again they asked me to
remove my cloths.  Imagine my horror when I realized I had not only not put
makeup on due to just not caring anymore, I finally understood why Mom
always insists on us wearing clean underwear.
While getting dressed I put on a pair of socks that had a whole in the toe.  I
even made the comment to myself, what the heck I don't have to get
undressed today so no one will know.  Then the next thing I know my feet
and socks were all up in the air for everyone to view.  How humiliating.  
I am really getting tired of these doctors asking me to get undressed and
place my feet in the air.  After all I am the one writing the checks and not
once has one offered me  a drink or dinner.
During yesterdays so called consultation I was told the radiation treatment
would be 5 times a week for about 5 to 6 weeks.  I was then asked to come
back today so they could do a ct scan to decide how to go about the
treatment.  
You guessed it, they asked me to strip again.  I did get my own cubby
whole to place my clothes.  I am wondering if I will be getting my own pole
soon or a membership in a nudest colony.  
After this is over I feel I might be able to just parade around in what God
sent me into this world in.
All kidding aside they did make a cast for my body to fit into each time I go
back for treatment.  This will insure they are only treating the area that
needs it and any other vital organs will be unharmed.  
This is not going to be so bad I don't think.  I just have to lay still for about
15 to 20 minutes a day while they shoot radiation at me.  The cast they
built will make sure a lay in the same position each time.  The hard part is
they can not do this through my clothes.  I get box number 15 each visit to
use like a high school gym locker.
Tomorrow I go to the hospital here in douglasville for a  full cat scan to
insure the cancer is just in the Vulvar area. The diagnosis so far looks
good because it appears it is all on the outside.
I do not know how soon they will get the report but, let's just all keep the
faith all is good and all the treatment will start on Monday week.  I need to
get back to work.  I miss all the wonderful people I work with and believe
me they have all been very supportive.
Take care and send me email's at blcastels@comcast .net or here
I will post more later.
Thank you all in advance for the prayers and support

Just went from hopeful to sad again.  I was just contacted by the hospital.  
They were calling to confirm my appointment.  
Little to my surprise the deduct is $1,500.00 tomorrow.  I do not have that
kind of money.  I am not asking for money.  I am asking you guys if you
know some sort of support system that might be able to help.  The hospital
told me I could fill out a uncomp application being that I am not working at
this time.  
They would not guarantee this would take care of the cost.  I told them I
could pay $40.00 and that was stretching it.  I have not even got a
disability check yet and have been out of work for almost 3 weeks now.
I know with todays technology we can email friends and families and get
information a whole lot faster than we could years ago.  I promise when I
am feeling better I will help each of you as much as I can.  For now, can
you please see who might talk to to assist me.